Yesterday I had a blue day. I don’t know why, I couldn’t shake it, but I refused to have a blue Wednesday. Luckily, I am the captain of my ship (to some extent) so I get to choose the course my day will take. But…
You ever have one of those days when you not only woke up on the wrong side of the bed but you seem to be walking, driving, and just plain functioning on the wrong side? I have a love/hate relationship with those kind of moods and days. I hate them because I am less productive, I have a lil’ pity party in my head, I have to be very careful what I say to people because I am usually short on patience and it’s not their fault. Only recently have come to appreciate those kind of days. I embrace them mainly because I know it won’t last forever, that I AM ALLOWED TO HAVE BAD DAYS, and I probably needed to spend some time alone and reflecting anyway.
I am an introvert, I enjoy being alone, I can go days in my apartment without ever leaving. Since I’ve quit my job I have had to MAKE myself get out of the house at least 5 days a week. It is the only way to assure that I brush my teeth and shower, and even that is sketchy at times :). We won’t even begin on what my hair is looking like these days. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJS7P76ADTE
I understand however that life is about relationship. Relationships with family, friends, and even strangers, so it greatly benefits me to come out of my shell sometimes, insecurities, worries, fears, doubts, attitudes, impatience and all. Besides, just because I enjoy a blue Tuesday every now and then (and spending it alone) doesn’t mean that I don’t also enjoy Orange Wednesdays (being out and about, relating, and productive).
Go Easy on yourself. Happy Orange Wednesday!
Wait…today is Wednesday right?